ashes? hell no.

so this isn't a private blog. but i don't expect anyone to be here in a long while. so now i just want to mark down time just like a journal or rather like earlier in my first blog. in the 100 posts that i made in "intwocorners" i think i became a little misguided. every letter that i typed by the end of it became this heavy burden. it is not what i started a blog for. i once told a few select people that if ever their mind became too much to handle, then sort it out just by typing. start up a blank document and pour out anything and everything that came out. the most important things of this to keep in mind is to.. never stop typing let the thoughts flow and track whatever comes out unfiltered. also to never stop from writing anything. similar to those letters that are written but are never sent.. but i like my method better. by the end of that document it should be the document that could end your life if someone else got there hands on that document. at the time of writing my "blank document" i had my own computer in my room which was in a different apartment from the rest of the family. so i was pretty sure it was safe. another one of my friends kept it in the deepest folder in her computer so only the intended could find it. but all in all i should have been able to write freely in my blog almost like i had in that document. but somewhere along the line.. i stopped writing for me, and started writing for the people who read it. so by the end it was less of me and more of "this is for 'you; people!" this new blog is to change that. the first step is to keep this private. but not private using blogger. i just won't tell anyone of it.. just yet. if you found it.. good for you. but im going to request that you keep it to yourself until i feel that it should be otherwise.

so most of all the summer has been mostly just some nice relaxing. the most exciting event has to be going to california for my brother's reception. im not 100% of the dates and times but bear with me. i left july 1st on a connection flight to LAX. first stop was atlanta, georgia. about 1h 20m flight, then a 1h wait until the 6h flight to LAX. im not sure of the time now.. but it was really late at night.. and ricky -reena's brother came to pick me and my family up from the airport. he just came from india so his driving style was definitely something that kept me up on the way to my temporary home, reena's parents' house. the reason that pearline and phann (my older sister and brother) weren't with ricky to greet us after the many months that i haven't seen them is because they sleeping at the time and everyone wanted them to catch some z's. it was cool seeing reena's parents again and after the normal intros. me and eilene went deeper into the house to get to our room which currently had pearline and phann sleeping in them. YAY! BROTHER AND SISTER! are awakened and hugs are shared. <3 nothing but love for the both of them. we eventually get situated and sleep in preparations for tomorrow.

i think the next morning started with me making eggs and having reena's mom comment on my cooking skills (which aren't existant.. cause i can only make egg, instant noodles, easy mac, and cookies) but this is just a reminder for my next post on where to start. night!

p.s. 12:51:59 AM